I've been planning to start a blog for a while now, just one about life and my experiences/opinions on things. I enjoy writing and have been told by a few friends that I should do more of it, so a blog seemed like the obvious choice.
I'm just going to dive in to some stuff that has been on my mind lately and see where I end up! So bear with me here as I begin my mini story...
So about 2 months ago I was approached online... (is it called approached if its not in person?) Anyways, I was messaged about an opportunity to work from my social media and have a chance to make a full-time income with part-time hours. I was skeptical... Like yeah, right that's a real thing!
But as I followed my recruiter, Sarah, I noticed that she was just a normal mom... Actually a kind of extraordinary mom; she has 5 kids, one is a foster and she is a stay at home mom/home-schooler! So basically her life is what I want for my future... maybe not 5 kids... but I would like to have a couple of my own, fostering is a dream of mine and I want to home-school my children. OK, I'm getting off topic... So as I followed Sarah, I realized she was real, she was making a full-time income and that this opportunity was also real.
I prayed about it a lot because I was still unsure if it was for me, but a time came when the kit you have to purchase when you sign up with this company had double the products in it, so I would be able to make my money back right away plus more! (it was a risk free opportunity). So I signed up! I took the plunge and became a distributor for It Works! Global, a Health & Wellness company selling all-natural products, I signed up to become a sales rep!
Since then I have been watching the training videos and listening to other distributors tips and tricks to get the most customers and how to hire more distributors (you make a percentage of the sales from the distributors you sign under you). So really you want to have customers plus distributors under you who are also gaining customers - this is how you can make a full-time income with part-time hours.
I have been focusing hard on doing the things that make other distributors successful; posting on my Facebook/Instagram EVERYDAY about the products and the business opportunity and also cold messaging people to see if they will purchase my products. I have been messaging all of my potential customers and learning how to word my messages and keep them interested. I have been adding new people to my Facebook and growing my following on Instagram. I have actually recruited a good amount of loyal customers and am quite close to a promotion!
BUT... I have spent this last month OBSESSED with It Works! It has been all I think about and all I work on. I am CONSTANTLY on my phone... But wait, I thought this was suppose to be part-time? Ok, ok.. so there is this thing called the Power Hour where you can get everything done in one hour. So I did that... But then you still have to message people who are interested in your products, and then follow up with previous customers and answer questions that you get asked... So then I end up CONSTANTLY on my phone! (Maybe I'm not good at time management?)
Let me tell you something else about myself... Before this, I was considering switching to a FLIP PHONE because I hated wasting my time on social media. I wanted to be productive with my time, like studying my bible, or learning something new or spending time doing tangible things! I wanted to spend less time in front of a screen and more time in the real world doing real things! And one day I want to be a role model to my children, raising them without that obsession with technology. I want to lead by example, which means not sitting on my phone all the time. I mean I did hike for 5.5 months straight last summer without a cell phone and loved it, so I have been craving the disconnection again!
Another thing about myself... I am totally against consumerism! I get we need things for survival and occasionally we can buy things that we desire to have but we are always being PUSHED to buy this or buy that; we are surrounded by ADS! I feel like it melts my brain!
... And now... I've become an Ad. My entire social media presence is an advertisement, trying to convince people to get on board with my products/company. I get that this is how you run a successful online marketing business, I get that people are consumers and they enjoy consuming and I get that in order for a consumer to buy something they need to know about the product through an ad. BUT, I feel like I'm going against my own beliefs, I am pushing something that I don't even believe in. I feel fake.
Let me clarify one thing though, It Works! Globals products are top of the line, they are amazing quality and they really do work! Hence why the company is doing so well! I do believe in the health benefits of the products. Also, the men and women working as distributors use the products and they are normal people making an income while staying home with their children/traveling/doing whatever the heck they want?
I have nothing against the company - and in fact I support consumers buying from an online sales rep because I would rather see support given to a family to help pay for their children's swim lessons, or a new car that they desperately need, or just to keep them home with their babies instead of leaving them for work, than support given to some CEO of some huge corporation so that they can buy their 3rd vacation home.
So I believe in the company as well. What I don't believe is the consumerism lifestyle. It's not the life for me. One day I hope to have a little self-sustaining farm where we can grow our own food and make my own soaps, where we can have honey bees and goats and spend our days in a slower more satisfying way. I want to rid myself of the busyness of this world and show my family how we can live with less things and more purpose and definitely a whole lot more God.
I thought that getting into this business was what God wanted for me, I had prayed but to be honest I jumped on the opportunity pretty quickly once I heard I could get double the product in my builders kit. I'm not sure I gave myself enough time to even hear an answer from God. I just thought since this opportunity came up maybe that was Gods sign for me take the plunge! Plus the company is Christian-based and Sarah is a Christian, as well as most of her team! I thought it was a perfect opportunity to connect with other Christian women, while making an income - plus I told myself I would use this business to glorify God.
Little did I know that I would find myself COMPLETELY DISTRACTED from God and focused only on myself and my business. Even the posts that I would add God into... I was literally doing only that - adding Him in as an extra. The weight of this business without me focusing on God is atrocious. My mind has just been in a jumble, racing around and never resting. Always thinking about the next post I was going to write, or what I would respond back to so and so. I was focused on the money I would be making soon and the freedom I would have once I started making it... My brain felt like it was going to explode.
I finally decided to make myself a prayer corner where I could leave all distractions (especially my phone) and just be with God, reading His word and praying for guidance. What I keep getting from Him is that I need to stay focused on Him and realize that He is the Lord of the ENTIRE UNIVERSE and my worries are only taking away the JOY I can have in Him and the rest that only He can provide.
The other night I actually had a meltdown thinking about working this business - Tom had gone out with the guys and I stayed home. It was about 7:00pm maybe when he left and I was on my phone (of course) working my business, I had been on it since 6:00pm probably, on and off earlier as well...I did not get off the couch or off my phone until somewhere around 10:00pm maybe? That's 4 hours of sitting on my phone!!! And this is something that was becoming a pattern! Once I realized just how much time I was wasting on my phone (making money or not) I just broke down, and cried to God - I can't do this anymore. This is not what I want, I am turning into a social media zombie! Please help me be FREE from this!
I gave it to God and went to bed. I have posted once this past weekend about the business. I haven't messaged anyone about it and I've been focusing on God and our relationship. Needless to say I feel so relieved and at rest right now, even though I am still unsure about where God wants me to go with this. Even if I am to leave it all behind, I feel like this last month has taught me an extremely important lesson and that is that time is valuable and you can either spend it on trying to get to a life you want or you can spend it LIVING a life you want. The life I want is with God, walking in a heartfelt relationship with Him. I want to live true to God, myself and my beliefs.
I know that one day Tom and I will have children and I will want to stay at home with them, but I don't have to worry about the future because Gods got us. He always has and always will. As long as we continue to walk the path He has laid before us then nothing can get in our way (I should know this! God brought us through the entire Appalachian Trail!). And maybe this short experience is what God wanted, so that I would turn to Him for the rest I so desperately needed and see that He needs to come first in my life in order for everything else to fall into place.
I am unsure at this time whether or not I will continue as an It Works! Distributor... I will be taking time to listen to God and see what His plans for me are. I don't want to spend my time the way I have been. I want to spend my time working for God, however that might be... Maybe just focusing on my actual full-time job as a supply Educational Assistant?? And you know, interacting with people face to face, building my teaching skills and behaviour management skills?... I know I'll need those one day!
God has given me a breath of fresh air after a month of holding my head under water. I am feeling very grateful that I have Him to cling to and set me free.